A year? has it been that long? Wow...it just seems like yesterday. No....honestly it feels like this morning...that I fell to my knees in the kitchen as the doctor confirmed the results of the amino over the phone...we had set on pins and needles for 3 days since our visit...waiting for the news. I prayed so much and so hard those 3 days.....I know I stripped a gear in my prayerer....first those loud crys..NO...NO..NO...that transformed into "let Your will be done and give me the wisdom and peace to handle it". I can tell you every move I made...leaving the house....the drive to Kellie's work...our conversation...
In the year since my last post...
3 days after the birth we laid Aden to rest...and to each and everyone of you that were there to share that moment with us...Thank You from the bottom of our hearts.
and as the days rolled by life slowly came to something that resembled normal life...days of wanting him with us.....no matter his condition...a selfish thought I know....but natural nevertheless. days of wondering if it really happened...a short drive south of town, and a brief glance at his name and that solitary date...May 1, 2008...serves to remind one that it was no dream...days of wanting someone to blame...followed by days of thanking God for taking him with no suffering. days came and went one by one...
and now today...right now...and many days pasts....the thoughts and conversations still bring a glassy covering to my eyes...missing him hasn't dimished...no amount of time will ever take that away...the emotional roller coaster has long come to a stop...settled by a solid footing in our faith...in knowing there is a Little Man up there whom Jesus and a legion of angels have taught to walk...to sing...and when I get there he'll know all the short cuts and cool places to go...
In the last year....3 other families in our area have heard those famous words....Trisomy 18...two we personally don't know...and a third we know well....to them I say...You are in our prayers...and the thought of you and your struggle are in our minds and hearts everyday....
To our friends and family thank you...
and to Aden, Happy Birthday Little Man....
Dad
Saturday, May 2, 2009
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